Body Image

Well I feel fortunate that I'm not dealing with the pornography or "women as objects" issues that were discussed in class. I don't really feel that is something that pertains to my life. Unfortunately body image is something else. It is not that I sit there in front of the mirror everyday and think about what I do or don't look like, but it is definitely a daily struggle. It's not something that I am quick to admit considering I would think of this problem as really girly... which anyone who knows me, knows that I'm not a fan of that and hate being affiliated with that... which I guess is weird? I don't know... anyway... I would say that I struggle with loving myself and that is something much deeper than image. By loving myself I don't exactly mean my appearance... for the most part I am talking about myself as a whole and what I have to offer God and whether I am good enough. When it comes to image though... I honestly could not tell you something that I was completely in love with about my body. I do know that it is dumb to sit there and think about it so I try my best to stop when I catch myself doing it... but again I think that mostly ties into loving myself. Because of this I have a really hard time taking a compliment. I'm not sure exactly how to over come it but as of now all I can do is pray about it giving it to God and repeat the words He told me "I see you as good." For the most part I can come off as "I don't care what I look like." I guess that's another thing that I'm dealing with... it's important for me to feel tougher than I really am... hmmm I honestly don't know why I'm typing this because right now I'm feeling vounerable and weak... and I hate that.